You've stood by me girl. ♥

I'd like to dedicate this blog, to my beautiful best friend.

I don't even know how to explain you, words cannot describe.

You are the only person i could trust my whole life with.

You are the only person i know will be there, through thick and thin, if anything goes bad.

You are the only person i can count on, 24/7, to cheer me up.

You are the only person that i can call my BEST friend.

I promise you, that whatever happens, whatever goes wrong, or right, i will be here for you. Standing there, waiting for you.

You are the most amazing, hilarious, outgoing and quite frankly unpredictable best friend, anyone could wish for.
I'm so lucky to have you.
Sometimes, i sit and think about how our friendship started off.
The first time you came round my house.
The first time i went to yours.

The first time we went out together.
The first time i felt like i had a true best friend.

And still, here you are, by my side. Through everything.

Enough of the soppyness, i've got to break it to you;

You're ginger:)

Jade Louise Freeman, I love you. So, so much.

until next time. ♥

We weren't in love, we were too young. ♥

I am sick of people saying they're in love.

Please, call me a hypocrite, because quite frankly, i always say i love people.
But if i'm honest, i've never been in love with someone.
I am 14 for god sake, fair enough, there is a possbility that you will be together for years.
For instance, my parents. When my mum was 11, my dad was her brothers best friend, and he was 16. So obviously they saw a lot of eachother. My mum had this cute little 'crush' on him. And obviously, having a 5 year age gap, they couldn't go out. When my mum was 17, and my dad was 22, my dad asked her out on a date. And here they are now. So from my mum fancying my dad since she was 11, i think it's mega cute. But in reality, that is a 10000000 to 1 probability. What if my dad had stopped being friends with my uncle? It's crazy how one little thing could've changed everything.
Let's be honest, it's not likely that the boyfriend/girlfriend you have now will be your partner in lets say, 25 years, is it?
I know, Ashleigh Walter (click the link for her splendid blog) posted a similar blog, but it was just when someone mentioned it to me, and it really made me think.
From now on, instead of an 'I love you'.
I'm gonna stick with the 'I like you'.

Until i really know.
And if i do say 'I love you' and you don't think i mean it, refer back to this blog. Just to prove me wrong.
I'll end this with a question:
Are you really, deeply, madly in love with them? Or is it just a crush?
Think about it.

until next time. ♥

Lets go all the way tonight, no regrets just love. ♥

Oh today was so amazing.
One of the best days in a while.

Thorpe park with three of my closest friends.

For a 7 hour day you wouldve thought we wouldve done more then 6-7 rides.
But i suppose it's pretty good. As we went on most of the best rides;

- X:/no way out (x2). me being too fat so alex nearly dying on the drop (:

- Rush. the dude that pretended he was a sleep was the absolute MAN :')

-Nemisis. me and jack weren't allowed on with our shoes off :(

-Colossus. the corkscrews and me and durbz screaming. ♥

-Saw. me and jack literally laughing all the way round, and queuing up for it with the gunshots and the weird lady behind us doing jigsaw impressions :D

-And of course vortex, but me and durbz just sat and watched :3

Had some mega good laughs, mostly with Jack Junor-Graham. And mostly on the rides.
Oh he makes me chuckle. Constantly laughing all round the tracks.
I love you Emma Louise Durbridge, Alex James Emery and Jack Andrew Junor-Graham.
Want a longer name Jack? Muaha. You guys seriously made me haphap today.
Thank you for taking us Alex, hope you enjoyed your birthday with us even though we are probably the craziest people you could've taken.
We love you and you know it ;)

until next time. ♥

I promise I will stay here all along. ♥

I just want to forget everything for a while, and know that no one can ruin my happiness.

I just want to scream right now, scream as loud as i can, without anyone complaining.

I just want to remember that the people i have in my life now, are there for good.

I just want to remember who i really am, and not to get caught up in this.
I just want to make you realise, you are my best friend, i promise.

I just want to feel like the blame isn't always on me.

I just want to be noticed by you.

and most importantly,

I just want you to realise,

we're the ones who stuck by you,

and we are the ones that will stick by you,

when everything doesnt go as perfectly as planned.

haven't written this for a while:

until next time. ♥

Can anybody hear me? ♥

I love Jack Junor-Graham. ♥

Lucky theres a family guy. ♥

Not gonna lie, there's just a few people i would happily shoot in the face right now.

On a happy note; Beautiful 3 days.
And tomorrow with my beautiful best friend :")
So thursday. had a half day and decided to take a trip to town with ol' Jadeykinsss.
Went in, and went straight to Cafe Néro. Tis the place to be!

Then we went for lunch at McDonalds.
And then just chilled.
Went into Risky, which was very risky of us. and I bought Jade a mega cute dress for a startling £3.

Beautiful day? i think so.
Yesterday, walked home to mine with durbridge. Bitched about people to my mother, then got a lift back to durbs' with my stuff.

Just chilled and then had a rather eventful night with some stupidly stupid people.
But it was funny.
Carried on a beautiful argument until the early hours.
And then carried on when we woke up.
It was gorgeous. :")

Then me and durbridge got picked up by my mumma and we went to south hill to take some pictures.
Some of them honestly turned out so good.
As you can see beautifully placed below.

And that's just 3 out of the 27 Miss Emma Durbridge uploaded. If you would like to see the rest of them click here.

And don't forget to click there. For Emma Durbridge's blog.

And here for Miss Jade Freemans.

I love Jade Freeman.
I love Emma Durbridge.
I love Jack Junor-Graham.
I love Caitlyn Allen.
I love Ashleigh Walter.
I love Alisha Harney.

I love Josh Hewlett.
I love Connor Langham.
I love you. ♥

Toodle-oo. Family guy's awaiting me:)x

until next time. ♥

^ i haven't put that in a while. tehe.

I can't stand another day inside this house. ♥

Jade Louise Freeman.

My best friend of all.

I love you so frigging much.

You mean everything.

♥

All of the stars are fading away, just try not to worry. ♥

I bloody love this girl. ♥
Emma Louise Durbridge, best friends for 4 years? i think so.
xx

I'll plant you the seeds of a tree, so you can start your climb away from me. ♥

So theres not really that much to say about today, but Caitlyn wanted me to write a blog.
So i'll start with two apologies, that'll mean nothing to you but mean a lot to me.

To Jack: i'm sorry about today, truely. I actually wish i went today, because it doesn't sound like you've had a brilliant day. And you know, i would've tried to cheer you up. I love you:)

To you aswell as you: to both of you, i'm truely sorry. for everything i've put you through. i'm such a bitch it's unreal. i dont know what i was thinking, i love you both, unbelievable amounts.

I love my brother. ridiculous amounts. he honestly means so much to me.
I suppose our relationship really is quite strong, for a brother and sister.
And i suppose he makes up for mike not liking me, haha.
I love you so much, chrissy. ♥

So Caitlyn Allen, eh? what a babe. I love you, you absolutely gorgeous thing :) xx

Futures- The Boy Who Cried Wolf.
i've been listening to this song a lot recently, and it'll never get old.
it's such an insane song.

Anyway guys, i'd better leave you to it. Caitlyn's gotta go, ya know? ;)

until next time. ♥

p.s. i walked to sainsburys on my own today and tripped over a rock whilst some man laughed at me, i soon realised i'd cut my toe open. D: and its proper nommable.
this is a very relevant piece of information to enter into my blog. muahaha

I belong to you and you are beautiful. ♥

"not to be a slutty whorey shitbrain."
- Wild child. ♥

I love days where you can just sit and watch movies for ages without getting bored.
I love days when i'm with my best friend and we laugh at the most stupid things.
I love days when i spend countless hours with my family, just because i can.
I love days when i'm in the best of moods and have a smile that doesn't come off my face for the whole day.
I love days where i can just chill out and honestly feel like i'm above the world.
I love my life.

No-one can ruin how much i honestly love my life right now.

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar. ♥

I love playing guitar. ♥

Lets talk this over, it's not like we're dead. ♥

I suppose i'm just being stupid.
I suppose i'm just being immature.

I suppose i'm just being unbelievable.

I suppose i'm just being completely spoilt.

I suppose i never expected you to feel anything.

I suppose i love you.

♥

Angels fall to the floor, like they would if I was captain. ♥

I can't even explain how tiring today was.
Maths. Science. R.S. Science. English.
Actually kill me now.
It's so unbelievably boring.
I hate Physics and Chemistry, with a great passion.

So, i'm feeling rather shitty today. For a 3 reasons.
Firstly, I honestly feel like she hates me right now.
Whatever I do, and whatever I say. She just seems to kind of, overlook me.
I'm fed up with being the person that gets the bad looks.
And the bad thing is, I know exactly what i've done wrong, but I can't stop it.

I love you. And i'm so sorry.

Secondly, things just generally don't seem to be going right recently.
Not feeling too good about anything and i'm starting to get fed up with everything.
I need something exciting to happen.
I need a holiday.

And lastly, i'm so confused about, just everything at the moment.
I'm not enjoying anything.
I think the question here is, what the hell is wrong with me?

I just need to get away.
Enough of my depressed self.

until next time. ♥

B-o-o-t-y, three over average girls calling three under average guys. ♥

There really isn't that much to say about today.
So i'm gonna mention some people that really mean a lot to me right now.

• Jade Freeman-
  My best friend. In the whole world.
• Jack Junor-Graham-
  You mean mega loads to me. Best friend.
• Connor Langham-
  You, my friend, are a tank. Always here, my lovely.
• Charlie French-
  You can always count on me, I won't let you down.
• Alisha Harney-
  You cheer me up, always. My so-called 'shining star.'
• Caitlyn Allen-
  Always there when I need someone to talk to. You're beautiful.

I love you guys too much.
I couldn't wish for better people to be in my life.
P.s. Caitlyn, you're actually really tight, but i'm just generally a nice person, this is why i included you in this. But to be quite honest, you're evil. Muaha, I love you.

until next time.♥

I wanna see your peacock. ♥

So, i'm pretty sure people aren't really bothered if i blogged or not yesterday, but like i said i wanted to keep to this.
I went to London again yesterday to watch a show, the Railway Children.
It was alright, but rather disappointing. Thats all i did yesterday anyway so there was no need for this blog. But i thought i might aswell just blend it in with what i did today.
So, i started year 10 today.
And i've realised, i seriously need to get my head down.
I'm looking forward to doing the stuff i actually want to do, instead of stupid subjects that mean nothing to me.
I also found out my results of my GCSE module for Biology and Chemistry.
The exams i took in June.
I'm pretty glad with what i got, i know an F in Chemistry isn't exactly amazing, but considering i want to be a nurse, i'm pretty pleased with the B in Biology.

Loveloveloving life at the moment.
And sometimes i think why i even wasted my breath on you. You 3 mean nothing to me now. I honestly can't believe i've lost such a good friend, but i'm glad i'm not friends with you, because of the person you've turned into. Considering we're the ones who made you who you are, you honestly are taking the piss. But i can't be bothered, with any of you anymore.

So i'd like to concentrate on the people that mean everything to me.

Enough from me, enjoy your evening.

until next time. ♥

You're my undercover lover, you get your kicks for free. ♥

Today was average. Woke up in the middle of the night to the sound of lil' Jade Freeman talking to herself. But when we woke up in the morning, she informed me that it was actually me talking in my sleep, do not know how this is possible but anyway. We took a beautiful drive into Windsor this morning with Mumma and Lesley. And then split up to do our own thing. I took Jade into Hooters to see the splendid musical instruments. She had a thrilling experience paha. We walked to McDonalds and were in there for about 20 minutes just deciding what to get. We practically got a meal between to of us. I got a burger, Jade got chips. We had to save room for our shakeaways. So I love shakeaway. Seriously one of the best shops ever invented. I first had one when I was with my cousin, when I was about 10/11? I love her for showing me what they are :) Moving on, we went and tried some fudge in the fudge shop and then walked back, found my mum and got our shakeaways. Thats basically all that happened in Windsor. Then we came back to mine and me and Jade decided to go to South hill. Gorgeous day. Gorgeous place. Why not? We were there for an hour or so. Then came back. We took Jade home and I played guitar, once again :) Thats my day really.

Playing guitar makes me happy.
Music makes me happy.

Gigs make me happy.
Friends make me happy.
Family make me happy.
You, make me happy.

until next time. ♥

You belong with me ♥

If i'm being honest, today/yesterday in general has been totally swish.
And theres not much more I can say.
I love my life & I love you.

until next time. ♥

I fell right through the cracks, now I'm tryna get back ♥

Had a pretty average day today. Woke up relatively early and waited for my brother to awake and rise from his hovel. You see, it was his birthday today. And me being the only one in, I wanted to make it good. Which i suppose for him, me being the only one there kind of ruined that for him. But last night me and my other brother made him a cake. And decorated it as if it was for a 9 year old instead of a 19 year old. But we knew he'd like it, he's definitely got an immature side.

Then Chris came home and we just messed around until Bethany arrived at my humble abode. We chilled for a couple of hours, sung songs and played guitar. Twas swish. Then we decided to go out for a bit at about 6oclock, to chill with Becky and Isis. This was also swish. We chilled for an hour or so and oh Isis how you amuse me. Then me and Bethyboo made the 2 minute trek back to my home from south hill. And Beth got picked up from mine. I went in and there was a box of tops pizza waiting for me. Thats always a nice thing to come home to! I love the brothers birthday :') I then sat down to eat with a glass of pepsi when Chris rung to be picked up from the cinema with his beaut of a girlfriend. I kindly offered to go with my mumma ahd have been chilling with Christoph and Katherine ever since. I shall now be playing guitar on my old laz until, probably, i go to bed, unless the rents start to complain. Because clearly my brother hates me. Tehe, no he just loves his girlfriend more.

What a beautiful life i lead.
Life is most swish!

until next time ♥

This time we're not giving up, lets make this last forever ♥

So i know this is slightly early to be blogging, considering its not the end of the day.

But i have nothing better to do. So i thought i'd blog it up.

Today i woke up rather late. I didn't have anything planned so there was no point getting up early. As soon as i woke up, i tidied my room. I put more things on my memorabilia wall and polished in every nook and cranny ;) It took me a while, but i didn't mind. I know it's not exactly fun, but i suppose i enjoy finding things that i haven't seen for a while. Straight after that, i went into my brothers room and learnt Hallelujah by Paramore on guitar. We done a little duet and it was insane. I love playing guitar, i've had an acoustic guitar for 4 years now. But honestly, didnt really take any notice to it. Now that i've been listening to music more, i want to play it. I've been stealing my brothers electric a lot recently and learning things maybe off of youtube videos or just from tabs. So this year, i'm getting an electric guitar for christmas. I can't wait and i may just ask for it early, haha. I suppose my brothers an influence for music, he's made me realise different genres of music, and what music i really do enjoy.

Moving on, i'd like to talk about love. And how much its screwed me over the past year.
I suppose only being 14, love doesnt matter. But at that age, i suppose you want to fit in and grow up faster. Having a boyfriend does make you feel a lot older and more responsible.

But i've realised, recently that i don't need one. I need friends and family. As long as i have those people around me i instantly feel better. I love the people in my life and i don't need anyone closer then they already are. Yeah, of course i'll be like 'i fancy him or him or him' and theres no reason i can't say that. It's my life. But i don't need a boyfriend, i just want one. I want to get over that fact. Life's good how it is, and not to say no-ones relationship will work out, but at this age, its not likely. And obviously, it is comforting to have a boyfriend, but in the worst of times you always know you have your best friends. And that is honestly all that matters to me.
So enough from me blabbering on once again,

until next time. ♥