well it's been days now and you change your mind again. ♥

all the cracks in the walls reminds you of things we said, and i could tell you that i wont hurt you this time; but it's just safer to keep you in this heart of mine.

so considering i once again haven't blogged for a bit. i came up with another subject to blog about so i thought i'd go for it.

confusing yourself.

yeah, it sounds ridiculously stupid. how can you confuse yourself?

but it's actually simple. telling yourself one thing then telling yourself another thing that contradicts the last thing.

yeah. i've confused myself once again so if anyones actually reading this i'm sure you'll be completely confused too.

but i've been telling myself i like this person. then another person.

the first person literally stood on my heart and crushed it into the floor. they couldn't have been more harsh to me.

the second is amazing. makes me feel happy, makes me do this :3 and just makes me love them because of their out right loveliness.

so any normal person would say the second one. why am i confused?

muuh. writing this bllog. has just confuzzled me even moaar.

bluhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh :3

this doesnt make sense.

baiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii :') ♥

I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about. ♥

i literally haven't blogged in like forever.

not that anyone would actually care.. buutt considering i used to blog like twice every day its a big change. i suppose i just haven't really had anything to blog about. i always just write a load of shit that no-one wants to read about. but i suppose this time i do have an actual subject.

knowing something you don't want to know.

i'll start from the beginning, i think its a suitable place to start.

if someone needs someone to talk to, to lean on, to trust. i'm here. like for anyone. i love listening to peoples problems and trying to help them. i love being trusted because i know i can be. but when someone tells you something, and it's not what you want to hear or not what you were expecting to hear. you don't exactly feel comfortable. it's made me feel like, i shouldn't know it. even though it's not a second-hand story, it's from the person involved. i can't help thinking about it, like yeah it might not be a big deal to you.. but it's ridiculous. i know it's coming to a halt now so i can relax, but it's made me think about how i deal with things. how people could be more mature about things or man the fuck up and tell the truth. opinions are opinions and every has as much right to have one as the next person.. but when it's not fair it's just not okay.

anyway, i suppose this is it really. when i get a brainwave i'll write another blog :'3

♥