We try and run away, but end up running back. ♥

I absolutely adore you.

Like to pieces.

You're the most amazing person ever put on this planet.

My reason? You make me smile so much, I can't even put into words.

You're so so lovely to me and I couldn't wish for anyone better to be in my life at the moment.

I've been such a shit friend to you and I need to repay you so much.
So I'm always here for you. Like whenever you need me.

Your hugs make me so happy and AHHHH I JUST LOVE YOU SO MUCH :3

Like you don't even understand how much!

I love you. I love you. I love you. SO much.

Thank you for everything, you don't understand how much I appreciate you.

LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVEYOU. ♥

Blast from the past. ♥

I love the fact we're best friends again.
There's nothing I've wanted more then that for ages now.

I'm so happy.

You really are like so amazing. And I forgot how amazing you are.

I never want to lose you again. I know everything about you and vice versa. You could destroy my life in a second if you wanted to. I've always had a fear that you'd leave me because I'm not worth your time or worries. And you never did leave me, we just grew apart. But now we're back together and I'm never letting go again. ♥

And don't you ever apologise for the past again because it's all my fault and I never deserved you.
I love you to absolute pieces and I wouldn't be anywhere without you and everything you've done for me. I'm always here for you, I promise you.
I love you so much boy, you're everything <3

well it's been days now and you change your mind again. ♥

all the cracks in the walls reminds you of things we said, and i could tell you that i wont hurt you this time; but it's just safer to keep you in this heart of mine.

so considering i once again haven't blogged for a bit. i came up with another subject to blog about so i thought i'd go for it.

confusing yourself.

yeah, it sounds ridiculously stupid. how can you confuse yourself?

but it's actually simple. telling yourself one thing then telling yourself another thing that contradicts the last thing.

yeah. i've confused myself once again so if anyones actually reading this i'm sure you'll be completely confused too.

but i've been telling myself i like this person. then another person.

the first person literally stood on my heart and crushed it into the floor. they couldn't have been more harsh to me.

the second is amazing. makes me feel happy, makes me do this :3 and just makes me love them because of their out right loveliness.

so any normal person would say the second one. why am i confused?

muuh. writing this bllog. has just confuzzled me even moaar.

bluhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh :3

this doesnt make sense.

baiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii :') ♥

I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about. ♥

i literally haven't blogged in like forever.

not that anyone would actually care.. buutt considering i used to blog like twice every day its a big change. i suppose i just haven't really had anything to blog about. i always just write a load of shit that no-one wants to read about. but i suppose this time i do have an actual subject.

knowing something you don't want to know.

i'll start from the beginning, i think its a suitable place to start.

if someone needs someone to talk to, to lean on, to trust. i'm here. like for anyone. i love listening to peoples problems and trying to help them. i love being trusted because i know i can be. but when someone tells you something, and it's not what you want to hear or not what you were expecting to hear. you don't exactly feel comfortable. it's made me feel like, i shouldn't know it. even though it's not a second-hand story, it's from the person involved. i can't help thinking about it, like yeah it might not be a big deal to you.. but it's ridiculous. i know it's coming to a halt now so i can relax, but it's made me think about how i deal with things. how people could be more mature about things or man the fuck up and tell the truth. opinions are opinions and every has as much right to have one as the next person.. but when it's not fair it's just not okay.

anyway, i suppose this is it really. when i get a brainwave i'll write another blog :'3

♥

I don't know what it is but I love you. ♥

So recently I've been talking to possibly the nicest boy you could ever come across.

This boy has been through more shit then anyone I know and is possibly one of the strongest people ever. He's incredibly amazing and deserves an unbelievable amount of respect. Although I haven't know him for years and years, I already know that he's someone I can put all my trust into. And I hope he feels the same about me. At the moment, there's nothing I want to achieve more then making him happy. Because that's what he deserves to be. Enough about describing this amazing kid... this is straight to you:

You're possibly one the best friends anyone could ever acquire. In the short space of time I've been talking to you, you've helped me so much and recently I don't know how I would've gotten through things without you; a huge struggle would have been involved. You're absolutely lovely and you deserve the most beautifully perfect girl in the world. I know a lot of people have been cocks to you recently and I just think that you should ignore them, because obviously they don't appreciate what a good friend you are. You've been through a lot and I know that. I want to help you the best I can and I want you to know that I'm always here for you. Through absolutely everything. You're amazing and you shouldn't let anyone tell you differently.
I love you so much, bestest. :'3 ♥

Sticks and stones may break my bones, but these grazed knees mean nothing at all. ♥

You, my dear, are what most would call pathetic.

One of the things I actually like about myself is that I think I can be a good friend.

And for you to say I'm a bad friend to one of the best friends I've ever had, is actually sort of heartbreaking.

Thank you for basically ruining the only thing I like about myself.

Thank you for knocking my self confidence down, even further. Not that I knew it was possible.

Thank you for making me feel like an awful friend to not only her, but every other one of my friends.
Thank you for making things even harder for me.

Thank you for making me feel like utter shit.

You don't know half the stuff going on in my life, so how about you stop making things harder for me when that was something I actually believed in myself for. Thanks again.

Move, move closer. ♥

I can't believe how much of a bitch I am.

So today I heard the worst rumour of my life.
I never listened to rumours, because quite simply, I don't give one shit.

I heard my best friends name. -instantly indulged-

..then I heard the only person I can truly say I hate's name.

These two names together in a sentence didn't sound good.
But until the words 'got' and 'off' were involved. I was steaming.

I couldn't believe it. But throughout the day, the rumour started becoming more and more true.
My best friend then showed me something that practically proved it was untrue. But I was still unsure about it. I don't know why.

I was so upset. Like all day. Not even because it was that girl. But because I didn't want my best friend to get hurt. And to have a rumour spread about him that he was clearly upset about.

I was such a bitch for believing it. For believing petty girls over him.
I love him to pieces. ♥