I still believe it's you & me till the end of time. ♥

I love days like these.

Days where I can sit there, relaxing and not worrying about anything.
So right now, I'm listening to probably my favourite band right now, Biffy Clyro, drinking a cup of tea whilst lying on my bed in my official favourite t-shirt, my Streetfight Silence one.

Couldn't be more simple then that.

Hi retarded picture haha!

I ♥ this though.
Hahahappy blog for once (:

Good day fellow bloggers xxx

'Cause when my back is turned, my bruises shine. ♥

I suppose I'm having a lovely half-term.. so why aren't I as happy as I usually am?

Honestly majorly fed up with this. On a happy note, I majorly love my friends.
Jade Louise Freeman:
You, my beautiful, are completely and utterly amazing. My best friend in the word. There is no-one whom of which has crossed this earth that I trust, apart from you. I trust you with absolutely everything I have. You are such an unreal best friend. I love you so much. I never expected a ginger to be so amazing(:

Connor Langham:
I don't really know what's going on at the moment, but whatever happens I'll always be here. We have had some amazing times. And I know that you're one of the best people I've ever come across. I love you so much Connor. Forever & always, whatever happens.

James Siffre:
Haven't really spoken to you for that long, but I already know that you're insane. I really want you to cheer the hell up dude! You're amazing and it's not worth it to let this bring you down. I shall be here for you, whenever you need a chat. I love you(:

Lovelovelove.

I ish tired, so enough blogging for me for one night.
I'll blog again tomorrow.

If I remember.

♥

Before our hearts decide, it's time to love again. ♥

Recently I haven't really had that much to talk about in my blogs.

I've been so depressing recently, that I can't stand to be like this any longer.

I want to be myself, ya know? So this is where I say a massive 'fuck it' to this.
This isn't like me and I'm starting to hate it.
So bring on me being happy again! :)

and to you, in the beautiful words of Leona Lewis:

Even if you cannot hear my voice,

i'll be right beside you dear.

Trying to take it back before it all went wrong. ♥

I'm done. There's no point in even trying anymore.
Enough of that, I want to dedicate this blog to the people that have been there always.

Christopher: the best brother in the whole world? Most definitely! You have always been there when I've needed you most. You're the person I will always turn to when I'm down, for a hug. You're the one I will forever support. I love going to your gigs, not only because I love your music but because I love seeing you on that stage and thinking to myself 'that's my brother up there.' I am so proud of you, and I know it sounds weird because you'd expect that from parents or something, but I truely am. I love you Chris. And I will always be here whenever you need a chat or someone to make fun of. You're amazing and don't let anyone tell you different.
Heather: you're blatently the best cousin of all time! You're hilarious and you know just what to do to cheer me up. You're always there, when I need a chat to cheer me up or a simple walk to get out of the house. You living near me helps of course;) It's ridiculous how much I missed you when you went travelling! Never leave me for that long again, okay? You're most beautiful and amazing. I love you!

Auntie Carol: you inspire me so much. You're so childish and immature, and you know how to make me laugh. Everyone I know that's met you thinks your amazing, because you are. You're beautiful in every single way and I couldn't wish for a better person to be there for me. I'm so proud of you for what you've done over the past year, all on your own. No-one deserves what you've been through, but definitely not you. I don't have a clue how you done what you did, but I admire you for it. I don't know what I would do without you. I love you so ridiculously much.

I'll finish this off another time, not extremely up for it right now.

♥

You say 'I love you boy' but I know you lie. ♥

"Everyone has a crush on someone who doesn't like them back, you just gotta suck it up and move on."

;Mitchel Musso ♥

I wish everything could back how it was, I'm such an idiot for messing this up.

How can I move on, when I'm still in love with you? ♥

So, woke up in the middle of the night, not being able to breathe.
Stupid cold.

I then started coughing, continually.
This hurt my throat, mega amounts.

I drunk a bottle of water.

Didn't work.

I then started to gag.
I then fell asleep.
And didn't get up until 10 o clock.
Guess i'm not going to school today.

Hello lazy day being ill.
Now i'm watching 'Love Happens' for the 4th time, because clearly it's a beautiful film.
Talking to the lovely Connor Langham, as he also has an illness.
And waiting for my lazy arse of a brother to get up so he can take Mac for a walk and get me some Lucozade.

♥

When a heart breaks, no it don't break even. ♥

• I've let you down.
• I don't understand you.
• You haven't done anything wrong.
• I hate you.
• I love you.
• I need you.
  
  ♥

Misguided ghosts, travelling endlessly. ♥

Cba making other people happy when i can't even make myself happy.

What am I supposed to do, when the best part of me was always you? ♥

Stuff my blog from a week or so ago.
I love you.

♥

Friends forever, means friends stick together. ♥

My two best friends in the whole entire world. <3

Connor 'Jeremiah' Langham: you are probably one of the most interesting people i've ever met. Everytime i see you, you have something different to tell me. If we were stuck in a room together, it wouldn't matter, because we could talk forever. We've only known eachother for 3 and a half months, but it feels like a lifetime. I know you so well, it's unreal. And you know practically everything about me. I know that i can tell you anything and i know i can trust you with my life. I will always be here for you, you mean so much to me. You are completely and utterly irreplaceable, there's seriously not the right word to sum you up in. Because you are just too many amazing things. I would never ever be able to cope if i lost you, you are basically a part of me. We've never had one argument, yeah we've probably been off with eachother at one point, but no arguments what-so-ever. You are honestly worthy of the most beautiful, amazing and perfect girl in the whole world. And honestly? You're insane at singing, boy! You are so amazing, I love you so much, Connor. I honestly do. Best friends always.

Jade Louise Freeman: for you? I could talk forever about you. We have so many memories it's unreal. I know we may not act like the best of friends in school, but you're the only person i do stuff with out of school ( ;) ) which to me, makes you my best friend. You are ridiculously intriguing. It's like 'What's Jade going to do next?' Paha. No but you are so amazing. And whatever stupid little girls say, you will always be beautiful. You could never be replaced, gorgeous! Our memories are the most precious memories i could ever have. Every moment i spend with you, you make me laugh. I love you so much Jadeypoo's. Best friends forever and ever and ever. <3

I need you, more than anybody else has needed anyone before. ♥

You make me giggle by doing the smallest things.

You make me get those silly little butterflies when ever you're around.

You make me feel like i'm the only person in the world.

You make me instantly smile whenever i see you.

You make me feel like i can be myself around you.

And this makes you perfect.

♥

Tell me, who are you? ♥

I hate how pathetic you're being about this. You seriously need to grow the hell up and think about your age. You make me sound like a complete and utter bitch, how do you actually think that makes me feel? It's ridiculous how reluctant I am to keep you as a friend, but you just throw it back in my face. I am fed up with you, you put me through so much shit and then expect me to just apologise. But even when I do apologise, you don't care. What more do you want me to do? Get down on my knees and beg? Because I'm not going to do that. I am not going to obey your every need. I am not your dog, I may look like one, but I'm sure not going to stand for being treated like one. From now on, when you're the one in the wrong, you can apologise. I'm not getting myself worked up because I've lost you, like I usually do. Because I can't do anything more then apologise. You know, I really do love you. But I'm over this. Until you find enough guts to apologise to me. Because I've said sorry to you, even though I think you're in the wrong.

And I know you don't like arguing, but why when I say sorry.. do you carry it on? Yes, I'll say it again, I'm sorry, I'm sorry for everything. I'm sorry for being an absolute idiot, and treating you like shit. But I can't put up with this anymore.

until next time. ♥

You are so beautiful to me. ♥

My best friend.
I'm always here for you.
As you are for me.
You are so amazing.
No-one could ever replace you.
I love Mister Connor -JEREMIAH- Langham. ♥

Oh words cannot express how much you mean to me. ♥

Some people need to grow the hell up. I'd like to say a few things that i've wanted to say for a while.

1. What the hell is wrong with you? Everything you do pisses me off. You do realise you've ruined everything for everyone you've ever come across. You're like death but in a person. You really need to sort your life out, and get the hell out of Bracknell. I could kick you straight in the face, seriously. Everytime I see you it makes me cringe. You are so ridiculously pathetic. I'm pretty sure everyone you've ever been friends with, you've upset and lost. You seriously need to think about it and take a look in the mirror when you call people two faced and 'bitches.' I hate you. You're the only person that I could actually say I hate. No-one likes you, apart from your.. whole 2 friends? Get over yourself, you self indulged twat.

2. I don't understand you. You're so hard to get through to. Thats all.
3. I can't believe what you do to yourself, I'm right here but you resort to people you can't trust and rely on. I've been here all along, I just want you to see that. I love you so much, and you're so amazing. You just need to realise that those people don't deserve you. I'm always here, I promise you.

Bit of anger there. But it's all the truth.
I hate having to resort to blogger to bitch about people, but it's exactly what you do.
Next time come to my face, and I'll have alot to say to you.
And for Connor Langham, Jade Freeman and Alisha Harney? I frigging love you guys. My everything? My everything indeed.
On a plus side, Legoland with the big bro tomorrow! Bring it onnn!

until next time. ♥

Wake me up inside, save me from the nothing I've become. ♥

I do love my friends, just a tiny bit.

looking forward to a beautiful weekend.

tomorrow: k2 with Jade Louise Freeman, then her probably sleeping over.
saturday: Shiv's party with Jade Louise Freeman once again.

sunday: Hello lazy day! bring it on!

Short, but sweet.
I love my life, my friends, my family.

until next time. ♥

She's all laid up in bed with a broken heart. ♥

I love my family.
I love my friends.
I love blogging.

I love playing netball.
I love The Simpsons.

I love Family Guy.

I love music.

I love Jonny Craig.

I love Matt Barnes.

I love Facebook.

I love curly hair.

I love Taylor Swift.

I love Waterloo Road.
I love chocolate.

I love America.

I love potato waffles.

I love playing guitar.

I love going to gigs.
I love Disney.

I love cuddling pillows.

I love chequered shirts.

I love sucking my thumb.

I love gingers.

I love being who I am.

I love blue biro's.
I love coca cola.

I love pepsi.

I love icecream with lemonade.
I love daim bars.

I love shakeaways.
I love starbucks.

I love pyjamas.

I love cuddles.

I love the cinema.

I love drawing.

I love TV.
I love my laptop.
I love ribena.
I love blue eyes.

I love red cheeks.
I love Spotify.
I love strawberries.
I love Terry's Chocolate Orange.
I love summer fruits and sparkling water.

I love performing.
I love sleeping.
I love my bed.
I love teddies.
I love Biffy Clyro.
I love Yma6.
I love ADTR.

I love The Script.
I love Emarosa.
I love Deaf Havana.

I love James Veck-Gilodi.
I love life.

and well.. thats me :)

until next time. ♥

Woaaah, living on a prayer. ♥

I wish i could turn back time. I would change so much.
I would never of let you meet.
I wouldve treated you so much better.
I wouldnt of pestered you.
I wouldve let you love me for longer.
I wouldve been happy.
I wouldve changed myself sooner.
I would be completely different.
If only i had the power.
Im in such a depressing state at the moment.
It's so unlike me.
I'll put on a smiley face, but deep down, i'm breaking.
I hate this.
Let me be happy again.

until next time. ♥

Smiling but we're close to tears. ♥

I honestly can't stand people like you.

I don't understand how two-faced you can actually be.

It's ridiculous.

Have a little bitch here and there i suppose is acceptable, but not your idea of a bitch.
Sometimes I just wish people like you, could realise what you're doing.
Anyone can tell you how idiotic you're being.
You either dislike them, or like them. You can't drop the C-bomb about them and still like them.
It's ridiculous.

You don't even deserve my typing.
The only word to describe you is, pathetic.

On a happy note, loving The Script recently. ♥

Over the past two days i've written a song; just guitar chords and lyrics. But I like it. It's only 3 minutes long. And it's not exactly chart-like music. But it's about something I feel strongly about, so I don't care.
I love blogging.
I love music.
I love friends.
I love family.
I love going to gigs.
I love playing guitar.
I love my life.

until next time. ♥

Before you leave please close the door. ♥

The Person You Like & Why You Like Them.

With all honesty, I'm not one of those people who just have the guts to blurt out who they like, so don't expect me to tell you.

But I like him because:

• He's unpredictable, outgoing, hilarious, lovely, gorgeous, he intrigues me, he never fails to amaze me and he gives me those silly butterflies whenever he's around.

5 Things That Irritate You About The Opposite Sex/Same Sex.

Woah this gives me something to rant about.
Opposite Sex:

How up their own arses some boys can be.

How some boys lead you on, only to let you down.

How thoughtless some guys can be.
How some guys only think about themselves.

How some boys don't let you know how they're truly feeling.

Same sex:
How BITCHY girls can be.

How TWOFACED girls can be.

How when one person tells you you're ugly, you will get upset. MAN UP! they don't mean anything.
How ridiculously jealous girls can get, when they like a boy. Get over it, it's their lives.

How they make out like ALL boys are dicks. Some boys are different, just gotta find the right one.

You may have seen this blog before i edited it.
But these are the only 2 questions that i actually care about.
So here you go.

until next time. ♥